Christmas Confessions Day 1: Not perfect

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Every time I share with you, my blog friend, I long to be perfect.

I want to express myself clearly, share just the right amount of struggle, and come to an encouraging conclusion.

What happens when I’m not thinking clearly? Experiencing too much struggle? Not yet at my encouraging conclusion?

Silence.

But I shouldn’t be writing to impress.
We’re friends.
We’re pilgrims traveling this rough road together.
You don’t need me to have all the answers. In fact, I may need the answers from you.

We’ll never stop needing to point each other to the One, Only Answer.
Jesus.

Lately, I’ve been realizing afresh just how imperfect I am.

My sinfulness trips me up, shuts me up, and leaves me wondering what could I possibly be qualified to say?

But though the enemy whispers that I’ll never be perfect enough, the Holy Spirit turns my gaze to a star… a manger… a cross.

Christmas is all about me not being perfect — me seeing, confessing, and forsaking my sin; me falling before my perfect, fully adequate, merciful Savior.

Through December, I’ll be writing short confessions.

Simple reflections that reveal my need for the Savior whose arrival we celebrate.
And prayers. A lifting up of myself and of you, my friend.

As a fellow pilgrim, I can’t offer you perfect prose or perfect answers.

But I can walk beside you, sharing the truth of my neediness and His sufficiency, sharing a moment before His throne together.

Heavenly Father, thank you that you welcome the needy, sinful, and broken with open arms. I praise you for the gift of your perfect, all-sufficient Son, who cleanses me from sin and your Holy Spirit who empowers me to walk in the light.

Please give me — and my friend — eyes to see our sin for what it is. Let us not be deceived into believing we’re fine without you. Break down our facades of perfection and give us courage to admit our desperate need for you.

Don’t let us celebrate your arrival, your sacrifice unchanged.

In Jesus’ name, Amen.

*Has your sin or a facade of perfection been holding you back from something? How can I pray for you? I’d love to hear your thoughts…

4 comments on “Christmas Confessions Day 1: Not perfect

  1. Jennifer – a fellow pilgrim on the road of life here. I too think I have to have it “together”, have already processed [it] fully, or at least “come to an encouraging conclusion” before posting.

    I am guilty too of letting the silence linger because I can’t get past my imperfectness and lack of qualification. Which, completely defies what I say I believe: my lacks/cracks are where He shines through, it is all for His glory, and I need only Him.

    The worst is when I’m “experiencing too much struggle” – it’s hard to know when and what level of vulnerability is good and right. I’m realizing my fears and wanting to portray the illusion of having things somewhat together have kept me from fully enjoying Christ’s love, mercy, and grace. Thank you for this reminder to rest in Him as we enter the Christmas season.

    • Thanks, April! Great to know I’m not alone in this! Praying right now that the Lord will continue to work in and through us in this area. It’s wonderful to be walking the road with you… grateful for your encouraging presence online!

  2. Jennifer – a fellow pilgrim on the road of life here. I too think I have to have it “together”, have already processed [it] fully, or at least “come to an encouraging conclusion” before posting.

    I am guilty too of letting the silence linger because I can’t get past my imperfectness and lack of qualification. Which, completely defies what I say I believe: my lacks/cracks are where He shines through, it is all for His glory, and I need only Him.

    The worst is when I’m “experiencing too much struggle” – it’s hard to know when and what level of vulnerability is good and right. I’m realizing my fears and wanting to portray the illusion of having things somewhat together have kept me from fully enjoying Christ’s love, mercy, and grace. Thank you for this reminder to rest in Him as we enter the Christmas season.

    • Thanks, April! Great to know I’m not alone in this! Praying right now that the Lord will continue to work in and through us in this area. It’s wonderful to be walking the road with you… grateful for your encouraging presence online!

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